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OIP : Operation in Progress

2009-04-26T01:19:00.000-07:00

haha..my blog will undergo some operations soon...have been sticking to this blogskin

since Yr1..thanks to the effort of Annabel Lim! hehe... oogling for a new look! time for

some changes!

21st birthday Part 2

2009-04-25T21:17:00.000-07:00

Heho! Updates to my 21st present list! haha..好开心哦！

P.S: As my camera had joined the lord as I mentioned, I had to

snap the presents with my phone's camera =(

Up in list:

12) Havaianas slippers & blink blink pink earpiece from

《我们就到这》 on 庆功宴, 17/4/09

They were trying hard to keep the presents as a surprise,

though it was a bit obvious because they were splitting the cost

in front of me... Haha... I tried to feign ignorance but there was

Lam Guang Feng who kept wanting to break the surprise

because nobody remembers or should I say knows his 21st

birthday which is on 13/4/09 = no presents for him... In short,

he's just dead jealous..haha...

Size 37 Havaianas Slim

(Bingo!they even manage to get the right size)

They are so sweet to remember about the earpiece I liked!

Though it might not be the original ones from Eardrop but tt's

enough!! I simply love it!!! Thanks sweeties^^ !

Close up of the earpiece (still not that clear =( )!

Our wonderful 《我们就到这》剧照

13) Coasters from Tosto, 1April'09 - 2April'09 (forgot about that in my previous post!)

Haha..it was meant to be a dare from Salome to get my next present..she wanted me

to ask the waiter if we could take home the many coasters on the table to make

myself look stupid.. To our surprise, the waiter actually said that it was meant for us

to take and there are 8 different colours with different words printed on it...When we

were leaving, he actually prepared 4 sets of the coasters wrapped nicely in a plastic

bag for us! The food might not be that fantastic@Tosto but definitely a Thumbs Up

for his good service!

I didn't say that he had good service just because he gave me presents hor! It was

because he was really patient with us. There were only 6 customers at Tosto when

we were there at 1am, we made up 4 of them, thus many of the dares they gave me

to redeem my 21presents involved the waiter..For example, they asked me to ask the

waiter if it was tea when obviously he was serving us coffee and asked me to

massage the waiter when he serves us again and etc etc...

That's the poor waiter who gave us good impressions of Tosto! Good Job!

14) Dinner Treat by dearest MAHADI@ Glasshouse & Gelare Esplanade,

24March'09

All in all,

My mood for my

21st birthday

is like him...... ----------->

......when he receives a

disneyland gift from me!

Btw, that's the boy that will suck

my blood every week,

though he had his cute moments

at times la!

Hehe ^^

21st Birthday

2009-04-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

Here's a summary of my 21st birthday after 17days old of being a 21, more to come :

1. New laptop by Uncle Kenny and my mum, 12March'09:

Toshiba Protege M800 from the IT fair in trade of my old laptop to my mum^^

It came with a 160GB hard disk and a Canon 4in1 printer which was taken by my

mum. I took the hard disk and laptop bag!

2. Birthday dinner with my family,treated by my mum, 27March'09

Strawberry Shortcake from FourLeaves, bought by Kale.

3. $100 angbao from my grandma and $50 from my uncle.

4. KL & Genting Trip, ticket and hotel sponsored by Uncle Kenny,

28March'09-1April'09.

We celebrated my mum's birthday during the trip too @KL tower revolving restaurant,

treated by Kale and me^^

Genting Themepark! My mum & Uncle Kenny!

Believe it Or Not! museum in Genting!

Not forgetting the Jenny Concert included in the Genting package!

5. Celebration with my besties: Shannie, Joann and Salome!

1April'09-2April'09 (directly after i came back from Genting)

They were trying to blindfold me in Shannie's car but they failed. In the end, I had to

blindfold myself for them!haha!

The 21 presents from them, all labelled with words of blessings! @Airport T3 Tosto

cos the originally planned places were all closed. Initially, they wanted to wait for

12am so they drove round and round east coast carpark till the pub closed, so they

drove me to TheCheesecakeHouse which was already closed too!haha..Met Yuneng

at the airport too!so qiao!

Haven't got the pics with the 3 of them from shannie yet!

They form 3 out of the 21 presents. Haha!

6. An add-on of $300 to my overseas expenses from Uncle Kenny.

7. Taipei & HongKong Trip, ticket and hotel sponsored by Kale.

Uncle Kenny and mum woke up super early to drive us to the airport!So sweet!

It was great enjoying the breeze in Taipei and stepping into XiMenDing on my

21st birthday!

But at the same time, I dropped my camera on the roughest spot of XiMenDing! The

last ugly picture that I took with my beloved camera!The camera was a gift from my

mum before I went to HangZhou!

Lumix FX33 has joined the Lord on 2Apr2009, 10:17:28 pm. There I was mourning for

my camera and Kale trying to console me with his Nikon D50.

The entire trip was very enjoyable though bumpy and rocky, Woops! My

carelessness and blurness was to the max!

Tsim Sha Tsui, HongKong

Great scenery!

JJ hotel was great too!Clean,big,provide 2 complimentary bottles everyday and the

basic necessities and it has a good location with lots of food n shopping around the

hotel! Other than their good service, their staff spoke fluent English too!Just to take

note of their DVD rentals where the rules are not stated very clearly, its not free!

Of coz we draw down the curtains when we use the toilet la!

8. Mini Picnic party organised by Joycelyn & Libing (still planning). Haha!

9. A memory booklet of the entire 21st birthday journey by Kale (still working on it. To

be exact, he haven't started yet!haha...)

10. Silver Medalist and book prize for Etymo and Civics&Moral. Life saving cash!

It was definitely a great 21st birthday for me n I must really thank God for that! To let

me know that I have so many people that love and care for me and to bring the many

impossibilities to me, the many things that was so unexpected and the many things

that I've never dared to dream about before. He has given me the best of all things

that I'm worthy of and he has mended every r/s that I treasured. I know He'll continue

to bless me. Amen! That makes up my last and greatest 21st present, to have his

blessings by my side always!

两人- 很难。。。

2009-03-05T06:59:00.000-08:00

两人若是没谅解，摩擦烦恼多又多，

两人若是没解释，摩擦烦恼永存在，

两人若是没解决，摩擦烦恼显红灯，

两人若是没沟通，在一起也不会天长地久

两人若是没真爱，在一起又有什么意义？

MERRY XMAS 2008^^

2008-12-25T23:08:00.000-08:00

Heh heh..Merry Xmas 2008..hohoho...whee..

Yet,it was another problematic xmas for us=( had a little squabble a few days ago..seems like every xmas, probs bound to surface for us..but well..xmas is a time for thanksgiving,love and forgiveness ^^ hehe...

Kale actually made bookings with the spa and singapore flyers..but i sprain my knee from work,so spa massage might not be suitable for me and if anyone read the news, singapore flyers broke down on 23rd dec, 1 day before xmas eve..sobx..like i say probs probs and more probs on xmas=( so we could only fulfill his plan of watching BEDTIME STORIES..
Here we're at the bookstore to research from guidebooks about what to do on xmas eve after the movie.Taking a picture with the mascot and holding part of my xmas gift..Rainbow CAREBEAR!!!he gave me a limited edition wallet from the author Ji Mi too ^^

Sadly, we could not find anything from the bookstore, so we decided to date my mum and uncle kenny for a free dinner..hehe..sponsored by uncle kenny..our usual pic-before-any-meals..

the food here is pretty good..nice soup base and tender pig trotters..slurp..my fav..but its abit pricey..located at one of the side allies near astons@katong..
so that was what we had for xmas eve..despite all the probs, we had a great time =)

The big day finally arrived, Merry Xmas!!!the first thing to do is definitely going to church to worship and give thanks to our precious jesus christ..where's xmas without the birth of jesus right???silent night~holy night~ these xmas carols never fail to touch my heart=)
Following that, we had our pigging out again..at fish n co..this time round sponsored by Kale..

We did a bit of shopping after meal and GUESS what..its really GUESS..hoho..i got my very first branded bag and wallet as a surprise gift from my two darlings..yahoo..though its not some mega brands but i'm satisfied enough..hehe..
This Guess bag is from KALE..

This matching wallet is from Uncle KENNY..my mum got a Guess wallet from uncle Kenny too..

And together, they are a HAPPY FAMILY!!!!!

Hohoho..Merry XMAS TO ALL!!!

Countdown 2days!!!

2008-11-27T22:56:00.000-08:00

wow..time really flies..ive ended my semester in nie..which puts an end of me as a np student...i graduated from ngee ann!!!yet,somehow i feel sad about it..i was rather reluctant to hand in my last assignment..delayed for many hours before i actually hand in online..heavy-hearted..i tink i really enjoyed being an np student with many beautiful memories...n by jux clicking the 'submit' button would really marks e end of it which i really dun bear to..

anw after submitting e last assignment,i've been working hard to save money for my brisbane trip with my dearest shannie and joann =) hope it'll be a smooth n safe trip..we din really plan much..n e day ends at 5pm in aussie,so if we wasted time there,we wun be able to see much..it'll be such a waste for the amt we spend on e tix..felt a little uneasy bout tt...haix..perhaps i should learn to relax a little..n stop being a ganjiong spider..its HOLIDAY!!!really excited about the trip..esp we're gg to gold coast..to visit the many worlds..dreamworld,movieworld,wet n wild etc...hoho..tt was my childhood dream to visit em..n we extended our stay in gold coast..from 1nit to perhaps 2-3nits??hehe..n thanks to shiying..our host in brisbane..we'll be stayin in her friend's apartment for free n we'll be able to drive ard..n she even got a friend to drive us..hoho.. so great to have her!!!may god bless us with a safe drive ard!!!our flight will be tis sun at 11pm..hehe..countdown..2days..

August updates

2008-08-31T07:00:00.000-07:00

woots..finally survived thru august..was so poor..hehes...a little update for the past

few wks..teehee.. came across these pics while i rot my wkends away...

24/7/08

was catching up with bel n jess at kenny rogers...finally..after much postponing coz

bel was really busy wif work..xin ku le =) we chatted on n on for lik more than 4h..till

e waiters change shift,our bums are still stuck on e seats wif our mouth yaking

away...haha..had so much fun catchin up...

26/7/08

finally went back to my secondary sch for CDS alumni dinner after much persuading

from guang feng (purposely make him beg me)..CDS(chinese drama society) has

always been sth tt i'm v.proud of..its somewhere tt i learn alot and had many beautiful

memories..tt's y i was particular angry with some particular teacher who tried to

criticise it..not as if tt particular teacher's tt great!shiok..catch up wif dua neh after e

dinner..was great..chatted for quite a while at 85market till past midnight..hoho..the

good old days...hmm..要幸福哦！！！

1/8/08 and on days where we're suppose to go for napfa...where u guess i'll

be???hehe..i used the time to improve my cultural values!!!free admission to

peranakan museum with jess n bel..hoho..n not 4getting making use of the props

there to entertain ourselves..dun hav e pics to post..bel!!!!

Picture taken by some stylish botak media guy..photographer i suppose???hoho..he

looks so artistic..had so much fun..went to J.CO after tt n bel treated us to drinks with

her hardwork pay...e mochabella taste specially nice =* took e train tgt to np b4 we go

our separate ways..bel n jess went for briefin while i went to support SAG!!!catch up

with e SAG juniors..n hearing so much gossips from em..hahha...as bitchy as

ever..had dinner wif em at alameen b4 joinin jess,yao n mx again at holland.v

swensens...what a fruitful and enjoyable day...

4/8/08 1st few days of school at NIE..

not 4getting camwhoring wif my 38..me and 38 found this place while we're walking

ard e art gallery..we're artistic ppl..wink..went to join dydy at bugis to help his fren

change image..his fren wants to learn from him coz he tinks tt he's

stylish..hoho..make dydy fly so high sia...

and while dydy's fren is in e midst of hair operation,we were at e side...

CAMWHORING!!!!hehes...

5/8/08

my dearest sisters surprised me at waraku..making up for my bday spent in

china..joann and shannie..i love you all!!!thank you so much..muack muack

muack!!!so happy!!!hehe..had so much discount..thanks to em n shannie's

sweetheart,avim...hoho...

10/8/08

my granny and aunt's bday...took a pic with my twin cousins while preparing to

surprise em..so cute!!love playing with em..everyone in my family are activated for

this mobilisation..so united..love the feeling..很幸福的感觉。。。家庭的温暖。。。

and my ah ma cried when we surprised her...hehe..yeah!!!mission succeed!!!took a

ride from mum to jess place after e celeb..its her bday party too!!!everybody were

about to leave when i reached..sobx sobx..but its ok..had a gr8 time chatting wif

shuang,yao who was slping when i reach,jin li n of cox e bday gal!!!heheh...

11/8/08

mum and uncle kenny treated us to hard rock cafe as promised..hoho..e food was

gd..ambience great..music gd..pricing is even greater..but luckily uncle kenny had e

member card..20%discount!!!woohooo...we secretly bought him his bday present

from there too..he's a big fan of hard rock cafe shirts...we used his card for discounts

but luckily he din notice anything amiss..hehe..

14/8/08

hey hey..tis is mahad..my 'sister' at work..look at his huge muscles..ummm..abit

cannot see liao hor..haha..he treated me to goodwoods's durian mooncake and durian

crepe which were sedap!!!we aso had mango mooncake..hot choco n cappucino..he

refuse to let me see e bill but i know its nt cheap lo..hehe..its suppose to be a high

class place but hoho..we were making a hell lot of noise..totally no image at all..as

ever..had so much fun!!!hehe..1st time there,a bit mountain tortoise..so i asked e

waitress quite abit of qn..feel so paiseh..but mahad says its ok..e waitresses are

trained to ans qn, so we should ask em as many qn as possible to let em flaunt their

talents!!!hahah...we cont to ask more qn!!!anyway it was eric khoo outside e glass

panel..we keep waving to him 'TALENTED ACTORS HERE AVAILABLE FOR

USE!!!!' we were so excited to see him n we count it to destine for us to see him..but

later mahad suddenly realise tt goodwoods is the hotel of his

father..hooo..MAhad!!!you still own me treats!!!!

yawns..getting tired..shall cont another day..hehe...

我想要什么？

2008-08-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

今天，我到图书馆去支持广峰了。。。他的剧本在戏剧盒的一个演读会中发表

了。。。花了16元在德士上。。。心疼。。。尤其在这么一个手头紧的时刻，但为了

支持他，我义不容辞。原本尧尧是要和我一起前去，但他突然不舒服，所以不去了。

少了一次和他见面的机会 =（亲爱的，要保重身体哦。。。

我应该是要开心的，但不知为什么，我的心情好沉重。。。我看到了中学很要好的朋

友，但似乎感情已经冷淡了，感觉已经不如以往了，心中难免有些不好受。。。我看

到了许多我熟悉的面孔。。如一些我所欣赏的戏剧家、演员、老师们和一些曾经合作

过的伙伴。。虽然有打招呼，但也只是表面上的寒暄。。感慨。。海燕老师说我变

了。。。不知是什么意思，不知是好事还是坏事。。。我说我知道，发福了。。她说

这可是我自己说的。。好啦。。。心知肚明。。这些熟悉的面孔都依然在发光发

亮。。广峰、文森、汶洁等等。。我为他们感到开心，同时也羡慕他们能追求自己的

梦想，知道自己要的是什么。。我？？？我不知道。。从中国回来之后，我陷入了一

种迷茫，变得很‘懒’。。。什么都不想做、不想想。。无所事事。。没有目标、没

有动力。。

我不知道这样对不对，我只知道这种感觉不好受。。。但是，我又不知道自己真正要

的是什么。。矛盾。。迷惑。。。我越来越不了解自己。。

不知道自己在写些什么。。文字和我的思绪一样混乱。。

A little update =P

2007-10-03T18:42:00.000-07:00

hav always been wantin to blog..so many things tt i wan blog about so tt these

memories can be stored and will nv ever be forgotten..but there's always 4 good

reasons to stop miss cindy ng.. 1. lazy... 2. tired..chose to sleep away the prob.. 3.

SIMS seduction.. 4. LAPPIE LAG!!! but reason num 4 is no longer valid cox a little

small angel revived my lappie wif his gr8 effort..

whoo..there's so much to share about..shall take it slow..let me see..from e last post

till now, it is bout 1 month away..whoo..got improvement eh..e other time was

6months..ok..hehess..bah...start wif a random pic..

me kale n mum on 27-7-07...1st formal meeting..kekess..but fear not..my mummy is a super duper easy gg person...kekes..unlike :/ ...

(sidetrack a bit...i'm at sim now n its realllyyy dreading..e internet here is e same

speed as my com previously = DUPER SLOW!!!!!hurrr...)

well..more pics to

share..was on virgo star cruise from the 12th-14th sep..i was in sub theme 1c , taking

social entreprenuership..initially i was rather reluctant to go..coz i din really kno

anyone..ok..yes i admit..i'm a slacker there..so i rarely get to tok to e others except

those from np..lik huijing, evelyn, tiffany.. joel and jerome...but it din turn out to be

as bad as i tot..e moment i reach e LT, i found out tt i was in e same room as my deary

fellow classmate weiting..woohoo..3 cheers..yip..these are my roomies..starting from

the left is elda,me,victoria and e one in white is weiting..they are great ppl..got to kno

of a new way of green tea skin care from elda..tis cute gal from BA..n victoria..a high

profiled gal tt always hav tonnes of frens crowdin ard her..amiable..n watsmore..ms

ong weiteng..someone to share e same frequency as me..my crapping n hang-out

companion..hehs...

SUB-Theme 1C presents..

Since i wasn't in the presenting group..we had to split into our sub theme n tink of

cheers and qn to be asked on the grand finale...n here's where e fun begins...coz....

its e start of our slacking gang!!!!

hehes..camwhorin away in one little cozy area..lamin away..it was my most enjoyable

moments on e cuise..got to kno a few new n great ppl..wuen yin.. timo.. jose..

zoey..tyler..snowlin..john..n many many..woohoo..below is jose..a cool gal tt i

met..she drives a bike n i really lik her dressin sense..very cool..

tis is wuen yin, jose n me..wuen yin is this funny,cheerful and happy-go-lucky gal..chicken head..

hehe..our social nit...kope e dress from victoria..she brought 2 sets of formal

clothes..mine was too lok kok as compared..so..hehe..e 4 of us were late for it..more

than half an hour late..WAT!!!pretty gals lik tt 1 wat..mux be e head turner..but we

end up with no big tables to sit tgt..my table of ppl??

ok FINE!!!i dun belong here..i ran in for their table pics..i not bacteria hor..jux pretty

gal..hehe..e food is super duper "FANTASTIC"..those meant really for high class

presentation but not consumption kind..so we ended up camwhorin

ard..teehee..they are my fellow 1C members..this is my cozy little table of 4...

hehe..i came down with a conclusion..i dun suit this kind of a formal western style of

dinner.. 1stly,the food is served so slowly..2ndly, e food dun suit me..1st appetizer for

this,is salad which i dun eat!!!soup was spinach soup..yew..i jux learnt to drink e

western mushroom or chicken soup..tt's all..n e main dish is lik a fish fillet for me but

e servin is so small for me..oni ate e four small piece of fish n e rest..i..leave it there!!

yux..duno wat's tt man!!!n e dessert..oh..umm..a pretty vase..still gt a 3rd reason..i

duno how to use e utensils!!!in to out or out to in??hahahahha..lastly..i dun hav tt

much formal wear to wear n i dun lik e restrictiveness..mux tok soft soft..e

etiqutte..oh man..i'm jux not tt kind of gal..luckily i was in this table with these em!!!

hehehs..we ended up not botherin bout e manners n stuff and started crappin n

laughing n...wahahah..found out tt victoria was in theatre aso..she's in fu jian hui

guan n she knos chee guan!!haah..tt cheecak!!!kekeks..

pretty roomies tgt =P

me n weiting =P

wohhoo..at e end of e whole ting..it was fun afterall..with gr8 ppl n of coz..I GAINED

WEIGHT!!!it wasn't jux simple poly forum to my clique..its POLY EATING

FORUM!!!we slp eat slack slp eat slack slp eat slack slp eat eat eat eat eateat!!!!!

heheh..

OK!!!shall end here now for e moment..much more to go but lazy already..gg for a

haircut soon wif dy...at far east..duno which to go..wanted to rebond initially but was

stopped by hong yi n lynette..they say it'll be diastrous when it starts to grow back..n

they started recommending me hair products to use..hehes..so sweet of em..hong yi

still offers to giv me her full new refill pack to trial..so nice of her..ok..shall listen to

em n jux get a cut..hehes..ciaoz..

PS: it took me 6days to finish this post..hehe..do abit then slck do abit then slack..hehes =*

Nie n Jo

2007-08-05T05:14:00.000-07:00

being understanding n considerate is e way to go...i'll try my best to..

wow..my close frens are walkin into e spark of love one by one..really happy for em..spent a whole afternoon wif niebobo n avim..wonder if i get slimmer..used part of my oil tank being a lightbulb..self-provided fuel..hehs..can see tt she is happy wif him..n he's rather sweet towards her, giving in to almost everything tt she wanted..esp e part when he was accompanyin her to shop for her hostel stuff..helpin her chose patiently..i'm sure he has his own stuff to do too..a yr 3 student,yet he's v.willin to giv his time to her..i aso feel bad stayin on further..so in e end i din went on wif nie to stock up on snacks..wanted to stay on further wif nie but i tink i shld kno e elephant n giv em private time..hehs..hey hey..nt tt i am jealous or envy of tt..i've one myself too..a v.good one n i'm satisfied wif it..hehs..i'm jux v.happy for this sister of mine..hope this happiness will be wif her 4ever..oh..nie n jo gonna stay in e hostel startin from tonit la..they will be uni students already..so cool la...haixx...miss jo...so long nv tok her le..watch her dance today..she has really improved alot n she did a gr8 job..

still hav major proj gg on..those tt i've no idea how to go about..but i'm not doin anything about it..hav been relaxin myself..as if i'm already on holiday..duno e word 'D' 'I' 'E' yet...bah...

haix..sparklight or gospellight???i duno..god..show me e way...

all the SHIPS...

2007-08-02T21:02:00.001-07:00

guys are really guys..they jux dropdead when they sleep..literally lik a dead log...till i cry while i was watchin dramas n left 4 cca aso duno...bet he looks lik a big indian when he wakes up later.. wif a big red patch on his forehead...so kawaii...

today is a rather tirin day..went 4 editin..can't really get a nice satisfied cut..had lunch bought by dy from btp..specially from there..so sweet..was super nice..was still a little hungry after tt..hehs..has been eatin alot alot lately..jux find satisfaction n a twine of happiness from eatin...always lik to do tis when i'm stress or sad..it fills me up...after tt went for sag..as usual..it was blood boilin..stress..taxing..angry..pissed..provoked..makin ppl hate me more..coz i kept correctin em..i admit i speak wif a strict tone sometimes, or perhaps when i get into serious stuff n esp towards those tt is stubborn to change or follow..ok..i'm rather impatient..can i blame it down to my horoscope??/nah..its down to me..lalala..was drained after SAG...n i realise it was already 10.30pm...oh shit..i'm causin trouble again..haix..

perhaps i'm used to freedom n i believe v.much in own rights..i believe nobody shld or can force u into sth tt u do not lik..if u dun lik e idea,then voice it out..if nt,u're makin urself suffer...i'm a little stressed by limitations esp to those tt i can't abide to..i'm tryin v.hard to..but sometimes i really can't help it...n i get u into trouble again...i wan her to be happy wif u...n u to be happy..so u'ld nt go against her n make her angry??yip..but when u abide to her requests, i admit tt i feel sad..can't explain it..yip..disappointed..a little..

how do u feel when u kno someone dun lik u esp someone tt will plays an impt role??vianny was on e phone while travellin home..though they dun see each other as often n they hav a distance factor to consider, i do envy her a little..cos she can hav it wif freedom..was listenin to her sharin bout her 1st visit to his house..it was funny n it seems so fun..can see tt she feels sweet bout it..was happy 4 her..

perhaps in every woman's heart, or shld i say anybody would lik to be placed 1st in e heart of the person they love n would wan to ensure tt they're loved as much..love is selfish i guess..love in any form..

kinship, i kno in my granny's heart, my bro's always her no. 1 no matter wat he did to her..i've nth to say bout tt..she has brought him up all e way..i think no matter how cold she seems to be towards his stuff, i guess he still means a lot to her..her bday is comin..i wonder if i'ld invite him along..in the matter of kinship, i care more for my position in my mum's heart..i wan to be her no.1...i'm easily jealous over her favouritism...still rmb tt i was childish to e extent of only allowin her to take in godsons n not god-daughters coz i was jealous..i wan to be her only n one daughter tt she could ever has..i too rmb times tt i threw my tantrum over tis matter..i snap super easily wif my mum n din really treasure how gd she was to me..although i love her very much since young, i din really appreciate her.. it was till now tt i learnt to appreciate her n treasure e times wif her really alot alot...i will jux turn into a little pampered girl when i'm wif her..n i lik it alot..

towards godship...god has many children..but he promise tt he will nv 4get n neglect any of us..n i believe in him coz he has indeed blessed me wif alot of stuff even at times tt i backslide..he's always there in times of need..in fact it was me who tends to 4get n neglect him when everything's gd..no no no...mux stop tis..i shall be a faithful follower..

hmm...friendship..i hav my faithful frens..a few of em..shall not mention their names cox they do kno who are they..ppl who stayed by my side no matter wat..at times of good or bad..they dun leave me or drift away from me no matter wat..tt's wat we call true frens...life-long frens..they care bout my feelings..they help me whenever i need help..n in the same way they approach me when they needed help..cox true frens dun hide stuff from each other, n they need scared to bother each other cox they kno they'll stand by each other..it takes two hands to clap..their relationships wun be affected coz of external or additional elements..even when they are married or are attached...their relationship shld not change..true frens wun drift from u cox of tt..instead they will stand by u again to support u thru, givin advice n sharin ur happiness..they're interested to kno wat happen coz they concern..true frens does alot alot other stuff more..in conclusion, they dun drift from u no matter wat...n on top i tis, i can proudly say i hav my true frens...tt's gd enuf..

for loveship..hmm..i duno wat position i'm in..its a bit complicated..i can't demand to be 1st coz it seems abit impossible..but at e same time, in the deepest of my heart, i wan to be 1st..coz a man who places u 1st will love u more than anything n protect u no matter wat..he'll not leave u..perhaps tt's e assurance tt all woman look 4ward to..a passport to life-long n secured relationship..

i still hav alot of tots..but i duno how to put em across words..i've been ramblin on n on..but they seem meaningless, nt drivin at wat i wan express..haiz..tired already...

revise Social Studies =)

2007-08-02T11:04:00.000-07:00

"now at jess house rushin proj...it has been a long time ever since i do tt..din really get to hang out wif em recently..somehow diff grp n different schedules..but guess we will spend alot time tgt soon..

haiz..tink i'm somehow a coward.."

haha..tis a post tt i was found in my draft box..dated ard 20/5/2007..let's do social studies now...

from the 1st sentence, it tells me that the writer was rushing proj at her fren's house..this further tells me that the both of them mux be good frens tt she is able to stayover at her house..jess mux be someone that she feels comfortable wif..it aso tells me tt the both of em are last min chiong-gers..the second n third sentence tells me that the writer is missin tis group of frens alot..the second last sentence was e reason that cause her not being able to spend time wif em n she looks 4ward to future gatherings wif em...tis aso tells me that she she treasure the friendship alot..the last sentence tells me tt e writer seems to be facing some problems that she din dare to face or solve it..

In conclusion, the writer is a 4getful n happy-go-lucky girl coz as she look back into tis draft,she has 4gotten e reason why she was a coward back then..so it means she has put down her little 'miseries' n move on wif her life...she's also a lame girl coz this entry is really lame..

hahah...tatta...

Randomatrics 1

2007-08-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

my back is really aching..i feel lik cryin..in fact i'm already cryin..lyin on my bed..tryin to distract
myself wif other stuff...but its still in pain...is it coz of my menses..i hope so..

my mind is in a mess too..there are stuffs tt i can't stop myself from tinkin bout...i enjoyed n

treasure e times tgt but i jux can't help feelin sad n tight up whenever e tots flash by...nt tt i dun

hav any confidence but i'm jux scared..i'm nt tt gd after all...

hav nt been bloggin..din hav e mood to..maybe lazy..jux dun feel lik bloggin..but now..alone in

my room..i jux feel lik lettin out some random stuff n distract myself from e pain..many things

did happened..sad, happy,angry,disappointment...everything..started some form of saving

too..too many to recount from..n there stuffs tt i dun wan to be bothered wif anymore..i tink i did my part in explainin..tryin to pull back stauff..but if its gonna cont..i jux can't do anything.. perhaps try thinkin if u're treated e same way..jux hope tt everything will be fine..n everybody will be happy..2

more wks to freedom...go ppl..we can do it...

emotional me

2007-05-16T03:44:00.000-07:00

was gettin rather emotional recently..cried today n yest..was suppose to meet dy yest for gym but in the end was held up by video stuff..so i cancelled e gym session wif dy..we were not able to digitise e stuff we took..spend hrs tryin but jux can't find..from 4plus till 6plus..was feelin rather stress n worried.. tot we had to reshoot..was controllin my emotions n stoppin my tears from rollin..however it failed when wei ting broke down out of e blue..thru her laughter..n at tt moment..ah cheng found the stuff we took..i cried..tink it was more of relief ba n a let out of e stuff tt's botherin me..duno how to explain..shall be random..we wasted the hrs tt's suppose to use for editin..so hav to start rushin le..was rather drained out after tt..left sch at 7plus gg 8..somehow i wished tt dy will appear at sch's bus stop to pick me..i wanted to rest on him but i know its impossible..actually i was abit disappointed tt he din come..he did mention tt he'll pick me from sch e nit b4 but i say no need cos i can feel tt he din say tt with a willin heart..i told him to come only if he really wan to..n in e end he din..was it cox he was held up at his mum's office or he is lazy to travel so far or he dun see a need to or he really din mean wat he say yest or...i duno..u can say tt its unfair to him coz i din request for him to come..but e ting is i feel tt tings lik tis shldn't be me openin my mouth to ask from him..it'ld be useless if he come jux bcos i wanted him to n he feels obligated..it shld be out of his own willinness n effort..tis goes e same to other things..its jux lik me gg to vivo to wait 4 him to get out of sentosa..gg to e mrt station to pick him..all these i did it on my own accord w/o him askin n i'll cont doin it as long as time allows..i dun mind spendin my time outside jux to wait 4 him n travel all e way to meet him..i've nv complain nor regret doin all these cox i did em willingly...i wan to spend more time wif him n i tink tt's sth sweet to do..its a form of care n concern i guess..seriously speakin..i dun lik waitin..i dun hav e patience to..i get agitated(esp when e person knowin tt i'm waitin n yet still take his own sweet time to come..lik jobobo..almost killed her but she's improvin)..but still..i'm willin to do it 4 him coz i wan to see him..i wonder how he feels when i do all these..perhaps he feels nth tt's y he's not doin e same ting..i duno how to explain clearly wat i'm tinkin but ya..i'm jux lookin 4ward to sth tt seems impossible..n i hope tt him sendin me home every time we meet is coz he really wan spend time wif me lik wat he says n nt bcoz he feels obligated to as in wat a guy shld do...i dun wan it to be a chore to him..its pointless to do so..nits lik yest..i really wanted to see him but i tink its jux empty hopes..coz its already nit time n i dun tink he can or wan to come out..n even if he wans..it'll jux make his parents suspicious..sometimes when i dun get to see him,i do feel lik callin him but tink it'll be inconvenient for him to tok n i kno he is nt e phone-type of person..i've to erase these tots from my mind..i tot of smsin him but din do tt eventually..he takes v.long to reply me recently n e waitin time will jux make me feel even more down..i juc look 4ward to him smsin me but its gettin lesser recently too..perhaps he's busy ba..sometimes i do feel tt he's abit cold..am i too demandin??haiz..perhaps we'ld nt hav started n i'ld jux admire him from afar..as long as he's happy..then i wun be tt demandin n possesive over him ba..it'll be easier on him too..more freedom n can keep himself available for better,sweeter n gentler gals..though i kno i'll be sad seein him wif other gals coz i kno i do love him but i'm satisfied enuf to see him happy..i wanted a r/s tt will last all e way wif him..i'm serious about our r/s but is tt possible?? will his parents object us coz of our religion n my backgrd??if they would,i dun see a pt in continuein anymore coz it'll be hard on him n he'll prob follow their decision in e end..unless he's willin to persist all e way wif me..though e tot of endin tings wif him already make me feel lik cryin but its sth tt e both of us should consider about..n i kno it'll be even harder for me to put down tis r/s as time goes by..i rather end tings now if e final outcome's a breakup wif him..b4 i fall deeper n deeper 4 him..kale kale kale...i really hope i'm nt a burden to u..if i ever become one to u,pls tell me..i dun wan u to be unhappy..i really hope we can last...hope u feel e same as me too... i went to gombak gym after sch..its nearer to sch compared to yishun's gym..will hav more time to spend at e gym..din ask dy to come..it'll be inconvenient for him ba..dun tink he wans to aso..

anyway i cried again durin danny's lesson today..actually more than half e class cried..my class are filled wif emotional creatures n plus our emotional lecturer wif his emotional lesson,it often land us cryin when sharin bout our past..e qn today was to tink of a teacher u respect most n y is e teacher worth rememberin..i tot of mdm sim..ahs humans hod..my sec 3 n4 geog teacher..e help n care she gave me..how she motivate me durin e pit of my life n e time she spends on me..n i cried while sharin lik e others..haiz..lazy to type already..shall end here..gg to meet dy at vivo after his work today =) anyway he stayed up till 1plus to do my work yest..so nice of him..i appreciate it..it sort of lessen my workload by abit..still gt e chi part to do..jia you gal!!!

edwin's 19th bday

2007-05-08T02:25:00.000-07:00

today's e 19th bday of Edwin Goh Chuan Heng..it seems so long tt i type out his full name..for a sec,i tot i can't rmb..but it was still clear in my mind...tink today will be a sleepless nit for some ppl..uncle tony..didi..esp auntie angie..she should be in edwin's room rit now..n prob mummy..tt includes me too..time really flies..it has been a yr plus..no..its even longer..i've been neglectin tis great fren of mine ever since i moved out or i've to admit tt it was way b4..i can't even rmb when was e last time i celebrated his bday wif him n prob i dun rmb his bday..but every yr he nv fails to rmb mine..even didi rmb(he bought me a ducklin soft toy last yr n ask my mum to pass me n tis yr,he sms me..usin edwin's no which gave me a shock..n make me wana cry)..no matter how sick he was, he rmb to prepare a present n would specially make a trip to my house..i rmb e last bday gift i got from him was a box of choco..n i din eat it coz i dun lik e taste..wat a fren i was..i did not make much effort to treasure him when he's ard..rmberin his face when i last visited him at e hospital on sat..e sparks in his eyes when he sees me..e smiles n e warmth of his hand n his tears when we prayed tgt..we had dinner tgt..auntie angie bought me fish soup noodles..tt well reminds me tt we used to hav fish soup rice tgt at 216 market almost everyday after sch durin our pri sch yrs..it was e greatest moments of my life..with my family n to hav a fren lik him..we kno each other too well..havin no prob in confidin to each other at all..he gave all out..his sincerity n everything..he knos wat i lik n wat i dun lik..he knows my every action n my temper..n he gives in to me no matter wat..he dun let anyone bully me..rmb there was a time tt he stood up for me at e void deck..we were all so small at tt time..his built was smaller than me..but e smallest was of coz didi..so cute..he was more than a fren definitely..a soulmate..of cox..we've known each other since K1..mummy loves him too..he was e bestest godson tt my mum had..but i nv knew e word treasure..i knew he was tired but he force himself to stay awake bcoz i was there..he wans to spend time wif me..despite his sickness,he still cares 4 me..he's worried bout me..he's concern bout my prob..he keeps askin me to 4give n reconcile wif my mum n he said ur mum will always be ur mum n she still loves u no matter wat..but i told him tt he dun understand..i was wrong..he knos everthing..soon,i had to rush 4 work at maestro,b4 we prayed,he told me tt he wasn't afraid at all to return to god's kingdom..he's prepared..he's brave..tt was really e last time i get to see him..wks later,auntie angie invited me over to her house..she said was some kind of celebration..she hopes i can really go but i din..i can't coz i had to perform in a play tt day..i rmb it was a sat too..i tot edwin was recoverin..so i tot it was ok 4 me not to go..i can visit him another time..i was happy 4 him..but immediately after e play,i received a call from my mum..he passed away..i din manage to see him 4 e last time..i really regretted but wat's e use of bein regret?its too late..i broke down..i attended his funeral..i was wif didi thruout..we recollect e memories tt we had tgt..we'd alot to tok about..but it seems so long ago..memories of pri sch days..at jln tenaga..n it somehow stopped there coz we dun spend as much time tgt after we moved..even though we drifted physically..we're close spiritually..perhaps tis is wat we called lifelong frens.. i tink edwin agrees to wat i say too..at e funeral,didi told me tt i was edwin's closest n bestest fren ever..e other person wld be jia bao..edwin's sec fren..if i'm nt wrong, jia bao's in e same pri sch as us too..

somehow i was glad tt all his sufferings had ended..but still..i miss him..alot alot..esp when i duno wat e pp ard me are tinkin n i'm lost..whether they did tings out of true heart or they had a motive behind it..are they frank wif me..will they hurt me..do they really mean it when they say i'm their best fren or i'm someone impt to em..or is it jux on e surface..all these make me appreciate edwin even more..i kno he'll neither do tings to hurt me nor lie to me..he knos v.well tt i hate liars n hypocrites..thank u edwin..happy bday..

happy birthday to u
happy birthday to u
happy birthday to edwin
happy birthday to u

edwin..i miss u...

kaka,
cindy

CraVings!!!

2007-04-09T03:25:00.000-07:00

took off for SAG today but SAG was cancelled..haix..shld hav

worked..haha..so was rottin at home..went to pay bills..ate e food
ah ma cooked..start watching zhong ji yi ban from utube..was

hungry soon..so had milk n biscuits..haix..cannot stay at

home..mouth jux can't stop munching..haha..suddenly had a

cravin for naan from e prata shop near sch..called alamee??duno

how to spell..hah..actually i crave more for the naan's chicken..its

so soft n tender..tried with bel on my bday n yum yum..anyway

could still rmb bel's reaction when i caught her makin her way

with e others to surprise me..'oh shit shit...'haha..so cute..thx

ppl=) aso had e cravin for e cake tt jo n nie bobo bought for me on

my bday..duno e name of e chocolate cake..tink it was from four

leaves..sth similar to coffee beans..e crust is really

superb..hehs..can be compared to my fav strawberry shortcake

from four leaves..yum..droolin...oei!!sinful u!! wat..i oni tinkin

ma..nv eat wat..hmph =/ dream aso cannot ah...hehs..pics of

em...

the nana n e chicken opp beauty world...

bel wif e cake after bein caught...

e supreme choco cake

wif e supreme crust..yummy...

e shephard pie jo n nie baked for me..dun look presentable n nt really hardened coz they use microwave to bake it instead of oven..jo's house no oven..haha..it was nice though..filled wif love=) crave for tt too..hehes..

e ugly pics we took at e bus stops..

nie n jobobo are so gonna kill me if they kno i post this on e blog..ahaha..alot more ugly pics we took..love em all...hehes..

back to the pretty 3 bim bim..hehs =)

k la..enuf of cravings..crave somemore i can't control myself already..

hees..gg vivo soon to meet kale =) ...hungry hungry hungry....but shall

try to control..i try i try i try my best....

the Sky is blue n clear again

2007-04-08T21:23:00.000-07:00

Whee..everything's cleared..no more aching no more

disappointment.. thanks 4 e courage to speak ur mind..u push me

down e pit n pull me up again..7th apr is a day to rmb=)

everything jux happen so fast...almost breathless..

suffocating..but I believe everything will be fine eventually..i've

e faith in u n u shall hav e faith in me..no regrets..trust,truth n

loyalty is e way to go..still hav a long path ahead..let's strive tgt

=) anyway some pics taken..

me n suhaila

me n kale

beep me n bro..e very pioneer batch =)

the 4 gals tt look so sweet n pretty tgt..hees...

me n shannie camwhorin in parvin's red peugeot car

Went to church today wif shannie n had e super nice fish soup near my

church..was havin mild sore throat initially but it got worst..down wif

fever aso..duno y..but I wasn't much tortured by em..was in a gd

mood..still able to go gym after service..thx to someone..hees..tink e

someone is busy workin now..no worries...jia you!!!hees..all alone at

home now..ah ma went to uncle's house..wun be back tt early i

guess..she's a night cat lik me..haha..my in-ah ma..

hmm..actually i was quite bothered wif suhaila's stuff..tink she's still

unhappy with me..haix..she keeps tinkin tt watever i do or say, i'm jux

tryin to curry favour with her..i mean wat for??wat can i gain from doin

tt??i really like her as a kaka..i can guarantee tt everything i say or do

comes from my heart..i'm nt tt sort of person to do such things n i dun

lik these things..i wun do unto others wat i dun wan others to do unto

me..i tried to explain but she dun seem to believe..i sms her n she din

reply too.. perhaps she's busy??hope so..everything will be fine i

guess..look on e bright side of life!!

shall end off here..beta hav an early nit..my forehead is scorching...tink

will be fine by tm mornin...

Launching Night!!!

2007-03-26T19:56:00.000-07:00

urgh..tink hangout too late yest alrady..had launching of SOS for e

VIPS..SOS is officially opened by e ministers!!!the fireworks for e

launchin was really nice..i can't help but started screamin n jumpin at e

holdin area..it was really magnificient!!haha..miraculously..i wasn't

nervous like i did when performin for e staff preview..perhaps cox there

were frens there at the staff preview..my bobo family actually made their

way down from e far east to support me..thx jo..thx nie..she actually

sorta miss her gatherin wif her 1984 ..n kf..tink he rushed down from

somewhere n manage to make it in time...manage to meet up wif em for

a while after my 1st show..we were really excited..took a couple of cool

pics..but can't upload now..still wif niebobo..there were other frens lik

my sentosa aka np aka chs aka T02 38 partner annabel chong(muhaha)

n my kodak frens n others..wonder if they enjoyed it..

make-up 4 e nit...thank you QQQ...

haha..ok..back to yest..after the lauchin..there were high class

refreshments for us n the theme was smart-casual..so as usual..being

vainpots..oh..i mean we respect e event alot..all e talents immediately

rushed up to our BOH n change into our CHICHI clothin!!everybody

looked gr8..got blink blink here n there..i had one on my nose..haha..n it

was the 1st time i'm wearin a low cute spagg..omg..i mux be mad..tt

wasn't my plan..i actually wanted to put on a jacket over my WoBBLY

but my dearest frens were so against it..so yup..was quite

uneasy..nevertheless..i took alot of pics..ahaha..n once again..e

pictureworks pp hav to work free OT for us coz they need print our pics

out..they experienced us once durin Arabian NIght n now again..tink

they will close shop next time they see us..but they are nice

ppl...haha..thank you =) it was alrady 12am when everything ended..

the resolution of e pic is nt tt gd..but i like it..it makes it a bit

smoky..hees..me n daen at launchin nit =)

me n kaka mahad..there were nicer ones..i lik esp e one with me,suhaila

n mahad..but lazy to scan the photo in...hees..

haha..e artistic pic tt i took..startin from e left..its me,mahadi,suhaila n

zambre...haha..look how slim we're..wonders of shadows..haha...

took llvin's buggy ride up to e beach station..after tt they wanted to go

arab street to chill out..i wanted to go home initially coz i was tired..but

suhaila's nt gg if i'm not gg n zam is sad bout suhaila not gg..so e pt is i

decided nt to be a wet blanket n tag along..hah..

they smoked seesha(duno how to spell it) at e

cafe..i din smoke..anyway i'd guardian suhaila to

watch over me..thx gal..haha..din order anythings

as well coz e things are exp..hees..but in e end zam treat me to arabic tea

n suhaila treat me to baked green apple ice cream..thx ppl..e non

smokers sat in one cozy table while e smokers sat in another table..

the ice-cream n tea they treated me =)

caught red-handed: Go away!!!leave us alone..haha..daen n suhaila

at e end me,haz, suhaila n beep had a little talk on r/s..they were

impartin me the gr8 theories of love n sharin wif me their

experiences..wat they said really made alot of sense..they said alot of

things..for exp..beep says every guy will cheat on gals..u'ld build a

barrier to protect urself but nt to e extend tt ppl cannot come into u..gals

can giv guys 3 chances but guys oni giv gals one chance coz they'll 4get

the sweet memories u all hav but rmb tt u cheat on him..suhaila says u

nv try u nv kno..u muz fall to grow..its thru these failures tt makes u a

beta person n u will see further..no matter wat..dun rush into r/s..dun

judge..be friends 1st..haha..haz says we cannot giv u an ans..we can oni

advice u..u mux depend on urself to find e ans..love is like a domino..it

breaks anytime..its tiring n heartbreakin but its thru these experiences tt

i learn..haha...yip..there are much more n they all make sense..however

its not up to me to decide..not as if i wan to try then i can try ma..mux be

someone willin to try wif me..can't possibly ask me to anyhow grab a

guy..i'll nv do tt..haha..even e stupid richel keep laughin at me for nt

bein in a r/s b4 in my 18 gg 19 yrs..wat..its jux my mr right haven appear

k..i rather wait patiently than to play wif it..so in e end we hang out till

3plus n shared cab home..when i finish washin up,it was already 4am

plus..chat wif my grandma after bathin..shared wif her e pics i took n

she told me bout her job..in the end i slept at ard 6am..

actually i was kind of sad..coz after tis launchin..llvin will not be in

charge of us anymore..sobx..he took gr8 care of us ever since this whole

talent tingy started..by jalyn with a small pool of talents..me,ah bang

fir,kaka gillian,farez n chee guan..things back then were much tougher

than now..it started on the 1st day of chi new yr 2006..n e crowd is non-

stop..thousands n thousands of ppl everyday..we literally worked from

9-7pm..punch in punctually n attend to every single guests..standin n

tok tok tok n act act act..esp at tt time there were no chairs at festivals..n

i've to stand for e whole day..after work we still hav to walk all the way

out to harbourfront coz e bus queue was really terrible..we hav to be

alert for regular spotchecks n tests too..mystery shoppers n stuff...dun

even dare to go toilet..rmb our red alert msg...from harbour to feativals

to kampong..relay msg system..haha..was even caught by regina red

handed..n our pathetic half an hour break..burnin our tongues by

sarppino pizza was a regularly tingy..5min to change in n out..5 min of

walkin to n fro..n e pizza takes 15min to be ready..so we are left wif oni

5min to eat..bit its e cheapest..3.80 staff meal wif a drink..haha..at

times,we even hav to ask e retail ppl to pack for us..it was tough but it

was really gr8 joy..we suffered tgt n we persevered..endurin it thru..but

chee guan left for army..air force officer now..so proud of him..gill left

for beta prospect..gg LA to venture in june..i kno she can do it..n now

llvin..he'll still be workin in sentosa but we'll get to see him much

lesser..he's more than a superior to us..a fren..in fact,i click quite well

wif him..he was asked to spotcheck on us frequently..he did come to

check but he will nv mark us down..even when we were caught gatherin

at festivals..haha..he understands n he is always there to back us up

when we land ourselve in deep shit..

that's sth bout talents tt i lik alot..we're more than colleagues..we're all

frens..we're a family..even wif the new grp of ppl..e spirit goes on..we

support one another thru n clean each other's mess..1st it was kaka

mahad..hazimah..zam..richel in ios..then comes sweetest

suhaila,Q....juz..small n tall daen..des..n others..we endured thru e

tough rehearsals of SOS tgt n we 're a more united family now!!!thanks

guys!!

Whee...i'm back!!!

2007-03-26T14:49:00.000-07:00

haha..finally found e url to my own blog..yeah..suddenly decided to start bloggin again..haha..of coz many things hav happened..but wat has passed has passed..so no pt harpin over it..hehs..anyway its towards e end of holidays soon..haix..so fast..really enjoyed this holiday alot alot..took alot pics too...

where are the pics??
haha..its gettin late n i wanna slp already..lazy le..juz wanna celebrate my re-discovery of my blog...hehs..upload later ba..hehs..ciaoz..

The 4getful me...

2006-09-01T00:30:00.000-07:00

Well..actually i was lazy to post..but i really wan to compliment

sth...SINGAPOREANS ARE NICE, HELPFUL & KIND PPL!!!! yar!!!

haha..e blur me lost my wallet again..4 e fourth or fifth time..but tis time

round..i separated my photos from my ez link card...so nt tt pain le..but

still..its so troublesome if i really lost my red purse..cox inside gt my np

card, my precious student ez link card wif value $12, sentosa pass, atm

card n cash $14..imagine i gotta replace em all..it'll cost a bomb la...i was

late 4 work yest..had to report 4 work at 9am n i work up at

9am..omg..yes..omg..haha..i was rushing lik siao..sms my bro n he said

nvm but still i feel bad...i rmb i tap e card at harbourfront mrt n i put in

bag..but when i reach sentosa gate..i could nt find my purse...i even

went up e shuttle bus again to ask n e kind driver help me to search aso

but to no avail..so i went all e way back to harbourfront again..but

seriously i wasn't scared lik last time anymore..perhaps i was used to

it???oops..tt's a bad sign..haiz..i had a feelin i can find it n datang!!!i

retrieved it from e mrt control station..some kind soul had returned my

purse w/o taking anything from it..SINGAPOREaNS ARE SO NICE =)

oh..it might not be a singaporean..umm..i mean as a whole la..thx u!!hav

to thank my wonderful god whom i prayed 4 help too..hee..

but it was nt e end to e blur n 4getful me..tis mornin i went out to do

some shoppin since my bro wanted to start some welfare tingy at our

workplace where all of us chip in 5buck per month to but some groceries

n stuff..n i was e treasurer..haha..so i went out to buy some biscuits 4

em..but i went to e salon 4 my newly permed hair to be trimmed abit

1st..e kind auntie was so nice..she trim my hair n fringe 4 free..hees..so

nice..then i went ard to check out prices..lookin 4 e cheapest n nicest

biscuit tt can be bought..in e end i bought a big tin of danone brand

biscuit 4 jux $3.90..instant milo...a box of oreo biscuit n a box of petite

chicken biscuit as requested by zam..e grape biscuit...a box of flu

panadol..all add up to less than 20 ucks..kind of

reasonable..hees..bought some medincine 4 my grandma too..n at tis

pt..shit!!i realise i 4get where i put my keys..tinkin it might be in one of e

plastic bags..so i cont shoppin...i prayed to god to help me find e keys..n

at my doorstep..i really can't find em..ransacked everything but still

cannot find..urghh!!!e blur me..i rmb takin my keys wif me lo..but???

how am i gg to church wif my homeclothes n so many things??my ah ma

comes home at 4plus n tt time was oni 11plus..haix..duno if i really left it

at home or some1 took it..all my keys are in e bunch la..my bedok

house..yishun n even sentosa keys..haix..no choice..i went to e coffee

shop to hav my breakfast n then suddenly a tot rang in my mind..its at e

salon..i went there n bingo!!!i really left it there..haha..thx to god..it muz
be HIM!!!n thx to e kind aunt..hees..

QUESTION OF E DAY:

If u'ld to chose an animal to represent urself in e aspect of love..which

animal will u chose??

I tink a tortoise will represent me..i like to take it slow n e guy mux have

patience wif me..in courtship..in intimacy wise..i'll freak out if he's too

pushy..perhaps coz i've nv tried any bgr b4..haha..n i aso hope my

relationship will last vvv.long lik e lifespan of a tortoise or even

4ever..heess...am i tinkin too much??or am i seeing things too easy??

haha..wat about u??

S&L LasT PerF

2006-08-20T03:30:00.000-07:00

yep...i flung my clit exam..damn sure tt i'm gona fail it..my mind was literally

blank when i do e paper on sat..spent time studyin n even gave up my perf n

woohoo...how wonderful i'm..was controlling thruout e paper n after it i

immediately ran away..i din wan to cry..felt so empty..felt so lonely...din know wat

i was gonna do..din know wat i was tinkin about..din know where to go..wanted to

go to church but tis tot came into my mind...wat can u do to help there??so i end

up walkin ard n ard for 6hrs..i was tired but i din wan to go home...wanted to find

a corner to slp but everywhere is so crowded during wkends..mac is packed wif

ppl...staircases are crowded wif ppl..so i had to walk on n on...but eventually i was

cheered up but a group of kids playin by e fountain..so happy watching em..so

cute..so innocent..

It was 5pm finally so i went to cityhall to meet dua nei, wen jie, zhan ting n cindy

seow...yeah..so happy seein em..my gang of craziest friends in ahs..haha..n my

cindy seow cut away her long silky hair...arhhh!!!yyy!!!!but she still look as

elegant as ever..haizz..jealous..haha..had dinner ay kenny rogers n we update

each other..listening bout gf's idiotic friends..n the 4 of em are plannin to hav a

graduation trip to taiwan..haix..can't join em =( ...after tt we went to watch s&l

final perf..yup..e one tt i quitted for clit exam..sososo regret...e perf was gr8..but i

felt abit sad n felt lik cryin..duno y..seein all e props..e stage..e scene..e

ppl..haiz..after e perf..e director, jia wei saw me n approached me..he gave me a

hug which i made me feel abit relieved..he did nt blame me n even invited me to

hav supper wif em later..i wanted to leave coz i felt ashamed to go but eventually i

went coz gt gf to pei me n e others aso kept askin us to go..haiyen lao shi even

thank me in front of e others which i dun tink i deserve it..haiz..

This is the rose that haiyen lao shi gave me...

This is e keychain tt weijun gave me...

This is qinzhi..yep..my partner 4 e show..he said sth to me on tt day which made

me feel so touched..made me feel so appreciated..thank you so much qinzhi =)

thks 4 e support u've been givin me n tolerating me..givin in to me almost all e

time..haha..coz durin supper, guang feng was complainin to him how we bickered

n how he had to giv in to me during xqxa..n qz juz laughed n told him tt we dun

bicker...which i agree seeing e difference too..haha..so tink he mux be givin in to

me all e time or we really gt mo qi..haha..another pic of qz..dun be mesmerized by

him..

qz, gf and me....

Our pic during xiang qin xiang ai...

Pic during S&L supper..

Yep..celebrated 2 persons' bday too wif e cake on wj hand..haha..both e bday boy n gal gt a kiss from chosen opp sex...haha..so fun..e whole place seems to be booked by us..well..tis aso made me realise tt a peck on e cheek is such a sweet ting to do..even i'm jux an on-looker..i can feel e sweetness when qz kissed e gal on e cheek n when hm kissed wj..haha..so sweet...waiting 4 my 1st peck...shy..*blushing*...hahah....

QUESTION OF THE DAY:

Where do u preferred being kissed most??I prefer e cheek..U??

Missing u guys

2006-08-04T22:21:00.000-07:00

blue reminds me of mj...

haiz..suddenly miss my jc frenx so much..tok to yangzz last nit...one of my close

pals in mj...n wow..tt fellow really shock heaven move earth...so many

stories...tink i miss out alot sia...i wan know every detail of it but it seems so

impossible coz there's really alot to ask..tt fellow even lied to me...idiot!!!i really

believed him la...so naive of me..haha..but i really enjoyed e tok with him..

hmm...guess if so many things happen to him..alot things which i din know mux

hav happen to e others as well..sy..ben..yuting..nicole..yuhan n so many

more...really miss em..so long nv update le..wonder if they still rmb me...wonder

if they miss me too..guess they are now busy preparin 4 prelims ba..step down

from cca le..yup..i miss bowlin trainin..battling with e guys...pass by mj a few

times in e morning n seeing ppl rushin into e sch..tis is wat i used to do

aso..miss my jc life..sometimes how i wish i can wear tt uniform again n walk

into e sch...tink i my lost mj badge..wonder if i am able to get a new one...

anyway i wonder if her mood has improved...haiz..was it my fault..haiz...i made someone unhappy again..haiz...

proPosal gRp

2006-08-04T02:18:00.001-07:00

haiz...my shoulder is aching...terrible..

haiz...i'm seeing things that's not right...but i'm not doin

anything...perhaps i din know wat to do n din know how to

help..haiz..i'm such a useless fren...i really hate e stuff tt e person

is doin...its literally wrong..even if its true..u'ld not do it tis

way...how'ld u feel if u're in another person's shoe..i'm sure

there're beta way out..really hope tt person can reflect n stop

wateva u're doin b4 its too late..coz i dun wan anything to happen

to u too..n i hope there's nobody doing those stuff to me coz i'ld

be really sad...hope...learn to treasure wat's there 4 u ba...they

are really precious..dun make urself regret...

haiz...feelin so down..i'ld be used to it n expect it to happen quite

frequently but haiz...i'm still...haiz..to those ppl whom i....i'm

soryy..i know...its scarry...

btw here to make myself happy by uploadin e photos i took

recently...oh..its alot...n i can't possibly put em all here...esp pics

of my...

WRITCOM PROPOSAL GROUP!!!!

(notice e big eyebags e 3 of us have...sexy right...haha...)

INTRODUCING TO YOU.....

MiAO LiN, me,Cindy!!! & Karmen

Our GGJ - GrOUp GIORDANO JACKET tt 3 of us happen to have!!!

We with our group jacket with our group cap on....

Malt sugar that we smuggle into e library from e carnival...haha...lucky e auntie nv sit at e staircase...whew...btw we won a packet of apollo each too...from e carnival..thanks to yufung who hit e 3 cans n thanks to my mouth which i use to 'debate' with e game master...speech communication is really useful..jie chu hai xiu xin li....haha...wow..e 5bucks is rather worthwhile...getting so much food n fun for 7 ppl while being able to help e mass com ppl...n i realise how cute n enthu twei ting can be..seeing her shoot e cans with analysis n suggesting to go play luge..bu kuai shi T02..haha...

n true...these 2 gals are really camwhores!!!omg!!!but i'm loving em!!!coz i'm one too..haha..our only n effective way to destress can be done in 6 simple steps....Step 1: Look for my bag...Step 2: Open my bag...Step 3: Search 4 sth small, leathery, rectangular n black...Step 4: Take it out... Step 5: Deng Deng!!!Its my camera!!! Step six: Start taking PHOTOGRAPHS!!!(Ng,n.d.,p.1) ...wow...with quotation aka ITC...full mark..good source..haha..btw these are only lik 5% of the photos we took throughout our 3 meetings..

haiz...deadlines n exams are coming..stress!!!let's jia you tgt ba!!!

e day b4 hk proj

2006-07-27T07:17:00.000-07:00

jux reach home n suddenly feel lik givin u a new

entry...hees..went to work today after so long...wow..see so

many new ppl...tink i throw my own face again..coz i see light in

back of house...so i tot it mux be someone i know inside n i went

in givin a very loud n enthu n long 'hello!'. n i realise in e room

was no one i know..all new colleagues..ahaha..n they look at me

blankly..mux be tinkin tt i mux be some

gundo...haiz..nvm..anyway was shock by adi..haha..can't believe

he can be so gentleman...help me carry laptop n pull down e rope

4 me..n he gt gd massaging skills..haha..but still feel lik chopping

him..everytime i see him..he'll sure try to hunt guys 4 me coz he

say i very poor ting..no bf..KAO..ok la..i know i'll be left on e shelf

la..but no choice wat..cannot force ppl to wan me wat..bleah!!!!

miss gillian n firdaus alot!!both my sis n bro...so long nv see em

le...n gill's leaving soon..haix..like her so much...btw i happy 4

firdaus...cox he's getting famous..wow!!!

kinda stress by proj proj n proj...n yes..i quited from e

performance already..my heart really ache on sun...seein all e

props on stage..n 4 e last time i'm goin be in close contact wif

em..gg to teach pei shan to do e blocking for e role..haiz...make

me miss e perf more..make me even more sad..haiz..but i know i'll

be happy if i see her do well in e perf..n tink its my responsibility

to teach her...hope i can really be of help to her...well..gonna

support their play on 19aug nit..yup..e day we gonna hav our clit

exam n be free after tt..anyway..anybody interested to watch e

play..can tell me..i got 2 free tix which can be shared out to make

e tix cheaper..its 8pm at buona vista..17aug n 18aug aso hav..

tink i'm stressin myself too much...partly coz of e bond n aso coz

of e perf..i gave up e perf cox of e bond n studies..so i really dun

wan to waste it..i dun wan to flung any of my proj or nt i'ld hav

given up my perf for nth...but it seems i'm givin myself too much

stress....i wonder if i've offended anybody...if i did...i'm

sorry...

been facing alot probs...n even financially...hav to bring food from

home..n luckily still gt my darlins to share food wif me...n yao

yao..so sorry..i still owe u money...i'll pay u when i get pay k..thx

yao yao..n to those who offered to lend me money...thank u!!!i

really treasure these darlins alot...have to thank god for em n

givin em good tolerance to bear wif me...i hope tt our friendship'll

nt end n may it grow stronger n stronger!!!even if we do

quarrel,we'll talk it out n it'll jux be an instance tingy n for e next

min we'll jux forget n forgive each other n be even closer...yup..i

believe our close friendship'll last...i believe...let's make it

happen...

ok...shall go prepare 4 hk proj now..argh...hope everything'll turn

out fine...

it ended....

2006-07-23T09:19:00.000-07:00

Does crying helps when u're sad??If it does...i really hope i can

cry..i'm controlling..nt gonna let myself cry coz there's tis

someone who doesn't lik me cryin...everything ended today..at e

pt when e clock turns 10..really miss it..feelin so

useless..yes..useless..dun even excel in anything...every aspect

of my life is a big fat zero...drifting apart...perhaps i should learn

to adapt..learn to accept..n learn to change...

BOND!!!!

2006-07-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

I stayed at home today to accompany my ah ma...i slept

throughout while waiting for her to come back from work...very

tired...having flu n sore throat..din do any hmwk either...jux dun

feel lik doin...n i made a decision...to quit from my

performance...my heart hurts...seriously...can't bear to but i

have..though i'm jux a very very small xtra but i treasure every

chance on stage coz i kno tt's always sth tt i can learn...but

now...i chose to give up...reason??coz i can't cope...alot proj

upfronting me...seriously no time to prepare 4 lit if i persist...n i

know i definitely will fail which i can't afford coz of e stupid 4

letter word...BOND...i'll need to compensate if i flung any module

n i can't survive w/o the salary...n coz of these..i've to give up my

passion...alot ppl keep sayin tt teaching track good la...gt

money...but i tell u..if i've a choice i wouldn't let myself be

bonded..being tight down is not any good feeling...argh!!!!

omg....argh!!!going down tm to settle stuff...see what e director

says n yup...cindy ng!!!be firm ok!!dun hesitate anymore...u'll oni

cause trouble to urself n e perf if u hesitate further...GOD!!!pls

lead e way n tell me what is e best solution for me....

Heart_earth sTorry beGins.....

2006-07-21T02:34:00.000-07:00

Whee!!!!bLog construction finaLLy completed!!!all thanks to ANNABEL LIM akA THE BLOG MAKER, CHINESE STUDIES YR 1 aka T02!!!!hahah..thks darling...

OK!!!here to post my 1st entry after much demand from all my dearies...hees..yep yep..hees..well..many things happened in my life..changes every now n there..hmm..think i'll start off with an inTro to my current life...

First of all...
my daRLing T02...........

my cute entire T02

Secondly....

I change my hairstyle..........

OMG...CINDY NG BEE TING...WAT DID U DO TO UR HAIR?!?

Haha...she is worst...haha...

Preparing to fly into space...

Via our ROCKET.....

AND BOOM!!!WE'RE BACK FROM UTOPIA!!!!

Proudly presents CINDY NG BEE TING & JOYCELYN OH YEE RU!!!

Before.....

me, jOy aka zhai zi & ANnabel....

And AFTER....

THirdly...i'm married....

Unbelievable right??? bUt yes...she's my besty aka hubby aka sista aka mama...haha...n we're married...

OUR STAMP OF VOW.....

'his' hand....

my hand....

&...

NEXT....

My T02 bEsties!!!!!

hmmm...WHo are they???

OMG!!!!!They are...

my besties.....bel,me & jess

more to go....my darlings...this pic seems familiar???yes..u've seen it b4...outside e library..under "STRICTLY NO ENTRY!!!".....haha...

Darling shuang ying,bel bel,me,jessica n our half sista, MR + MS=MRS wang yu

OEI...MR YAO YAO n MS ZHAI ZI...dun tink ur face nt here u can escape hor...u're banned too!!!come out now!!!stop hiding!!!faster...urghhh..i'll dig u out....

HERE U ARE...ZHAI Jun n Cheng YAo...oei BEL..u come out again for wat!!!Xtra la!!!haha...

n lastly b4 we go for a short break...my son...proudly presents...Kwang YU fUng....

ARGH!!!!!!!!SON!!!!WAT U DOING!!!!ARGH!!!SEE GHOST LA!!!!!CHENG YAO!!!!u gonna get it from me!!!!

OK!!!as promised...a short break...feeling hungry rit????

FISHBALL, MEATBALL n SOTONG BALL for u....ahahahhahah!!!!

BACK FROM BREAK!!!iNtro my work to u now...

my best colleagues in sentosa...where is jamie n llvin???

firdaus aka bro, chee guan, farez

Mahadi, me, Gillian aka sista

I joined Ambassadors too...

my cliqUe...

ARgh..who are these ppl???

Solemn ppl??

DEFINITELY NOT!!!we are e cheerful,hyper n cute ppl =)

all the gals look good!!!!

This is wat we do during our first entire 9am slot....

me on e phone yet still wan take photo..oop..hee...

Shhhh...dun tell Mr. A.....

JOYCELYN!!!wat u doing!!!who u wan call???xtra la...

A clearer pic???OK!!!

9am gang: candy,stephanie,shahira,clement,joycelyn n me

AND most IMPORTANTLY....

e ppl tt have always been in my life.......

my most precious n beloved mother

my cutest n nicest grandma

n my besties tt went thru thick n thin with me

OK!!!! tt's all 4 now!!!!

haha...e focus is in the middle...n tt's me!!!!hahah

THAT"S ALL FOLKS!!!